I Did Not Binge!

Hello Peeps (it is almost Easter, get it...Peeps? lol)
So I hope everyone had a good Sunday and Monday. After I wrote my blog asking people to stop me from eating chips I finally left the apartment. I was trying to talk myself out of it because I knew if I left the house my car would take me right to a convenience store for some chips. So I finally decided to brave the outdoors, if there are any other secret eaters out there you know how hard this is! So I went to Giant Tiger for some computer paper, then went for a tan, then to Subway for dinner. I went to one I had never been to before and it was in a sketchy area, it looked like a drug deal was going on out in front and it was shady, I was scared yet hungry so I went in anyways and it was fine, just happy my car was still there when I came out. Now here is where it became difficult, on either side of the Subway there was a convenience store!! I just stood in the parking lot and stared at them thinking how much I wanted to go in, and just get a little bag, but you know what? I resisted!!

I came home and started immediately cross stitching to take my mind off of wanting chips because I was still considering going to the store. So I stitched for hours upon hours, made a bag of 100 calorie Smart Pop, watched some America's Next Top Model and called it a day! Binge resistance complete, I think this is the first time in my whole life that when I was alone I did not just eat every bad thing I could find so one small step for fat people everywhere but one giant leap for me :)

So yesterday I had my interviews. They both went well, I have a second one at Old Navy on Thursday unfortunately it is for the position I did not really want but hey I need a job right? I am pretty sure I will get both jobs so I do not know if that will work, ofcourse I want to work full time hours but starting 2 at once might not work because there will be so many training hours and they will probably conflict with each other. So I will take the first one offered to me and then do my best about the second one of I get it! Today K and I are running about 8 errands so we will be gone all day, then we are going for dinner (somewhere healthy, no Pizza Hut lol) and then we are going to see 2 movies, it is cheap night. I have never seen 2 movies in one night, I think it will be fun. We are going to see Alice in Wonderland in 3D and Hot Tub Time Machine, it looks funny. I am excited. We got in a fight last night so I am glad we are still going, we usually work it out pretty quickly.

Tomorrow at midnight is when I find out about teachers college, I hope at least someone is around so I can celebrate/cry to them about getting in or not!! I am nervous!!!

Happy Tuesday do not forget to watch Biggest Loser tonight, even though I cannot but I will watch it on demand:)

Go Daris (LOVE HIM)

Help Needed

Yo peeps
Today I was reading some blogs and came across a few questions that Mann Land 5 posted on their blog and a lot of people have chosen to answer them as well to show people a little more about them. These questions are from a mans point of view so I thought it would be fun to answer them here in my blog, and all you blogger followers can copy and paste the questions and answer them in your own blog, or you can find them at: http://www.mannland5.com. So here they are,

1 - Why did you start blogging?

2 - Who's the one blog friend that you would want to meet most in "real life"?
3 - Why are you always concerned with losing that "extra 10 pounds" when chances are your husband/boyfriend/friends tell you that you look just fine the way you are?
4 - What's the one thing you wish guys could understand about you?
5 - Tattoos. How many do you have and how many are visible when you wear your "everyday" clothes?
6 - What was the best year of your life and why?
7 - Name three things you would do if you were a man for one day.
8 - What's your alcoholic drink of choice that usually raises a few eyebrows?

The answers:

1) I started blogging because I have been struggling with my weight and other issues for so long and with living in a new city I do not have people to talk to I really needed an outlet. I am so glad I did because the support and comments I get from my fellow bloggers is more than I could have imagined or expected.

2) Hmm I would love to meet all of my blog friends in real life! I think Whitney over at fatgirlinaweddingdress.blogspot.com and Allison over at lovingmycomplicatedlife.blogspot.com would be cool to meet since we are around the same age and going through some of the same issues! But I think I would love to meet at 38 of my blog friends!! :)

3) Yes my boyfriend says he loves me the way I am. I do not want to lose weight for him I want to do it for ME, I want to be healthy, I do not want to be overweight anymore!

4)The one thing I wish guys could understand about me is...well the only guy I care about pretty much totally understands me! But I think I would want them to know that I am not the type of girl who gets possessive after a break up. So many of my exes have blocked me on facebook and stupid stuff like this, as if I would stalk them and want them back, I think they need to get over themselves! I think if you are friends before you date you can be friends after, apparently they do not know this about me! (boys and their egos, or maybe its just their crazy girlfriends make them block me lol)

5)Tattoos, I have 3. None of them are visible while wearing everyday clothes, but I want more, and they will all be visible, I would like the back of my neck, and my foot!

6)The best year of my life well I have 2 for different reasons. 2004 was my first year of university and I had the most fun of my entire life living in residence. But 2009 I met K and we have had a great relationship so far.

7)If I were a man for one day I would...eat so much bad food and not gain a pound since they seem to be able to do that, I would be able to shower and then have my hair be dry within 5 minutes of getting out (I would love that) and I would just ignore every possible thing that people say to me or what goes on around me!

8)I actually do not really drink very much anymore, but I used to love "broken down golf cart" shots!

Now here is where the help is needed, K is not home today and will not be back until tomorrow afternoon. I am here alone and I want chips, I want to go to the store buy a huge bag of chips and just eat the whole thing. I am going out later to tan and I know I will want to stop off at the convenience store for some chips... HELP ME!

3 Pounds Gone!!

Well 3 pounds does not really sound like a lot but to me, it certainly is. Since I started actually trying to lose weight and committing only a few days ago I have officially lost 3 pounds. It feels really good, even though I am still in the 190s and clearly overweight I feel happy that I have lost 3 pounds :). My goal for the end of March is to be in the 180's! So I shall keep working hard to accomplish that mini goal, K also told me that when I reach 185 he will pay for me to go do some tanning or get my hair did lol, so come on 185!!

I have not eaten anything bad for me which is a triumph all on its own, no chips which is a huge success for me. I have started to eat crackers anytime I feel like I need something crunchy, so instead of eating a whole big bag of chips I will eat 10 crackers or so. Yesterday I was so mad I wanted to go for a nice long walk since the weather was nice and I did not feel like working out in the house. So I got dressed, got my iPod and sunglasses, put my shoes on and then realized that my keys were in K's car!! So I could not go, one of the downsides of living in an apartment is if you do not have your keys you cannot leave because then you cannot get back in the building UGH. So then I did not want to skip exercising so I did one of my Wii workouts. This time I did the Jenny McCarthy one called "Your Shape" does anyone else have this one? Well it is definitely not my favourite. It comes with a webcam that you have to use so you are staring at yourself the entire time, which I obviously did not like as I hate how I look in shorts and a tank top. However it definitely makes you want to keep working out so that you do not look like that anymore! So it is a double edged sword and I was sweating up a huge storm after!!

The other night K and I went grocery shopping and I made him walk up and down every isle, now this does not sound like a lot but it is a really big store. So we went up and down every one other than the chip isle because I cannot go down there without buying some! So every little bit helps, and since I went on all the errands the other day I got my promised Betty and Veronica comic lol, I have not ready it yet but I will soon.

In other news we are not moving out, the landlord was not having it AT ALL. (UGH)
My job interview has been moved to Wednesday, seriously I am getting nervous that she just does not want to meet with me so she keeps putting it off, I hope that is not the case.

Have a good Monday all!