Yes thats right I got my first job interview in the city I have been living in for 5 months now applying to about 100 jobs and not hearing from one. My best friend talks about willing things into your life...well i started willing this job I really want into my life and poof today the girl asked me for an interview on Wednesday YESSSSSS!! This is such an awesome day (even though I did not eat well) but I am visiting my parents for a couple days and celebrating my anniversary with my boyfriend so we went out for thai which was where we went on our first date how cute:)
So today was a great day and I cannot wait for my interview! As for weight loss I have been inspired by so many of you bloggers out there and your achievements it makes me really think that I can do it, and you know what? I will! Must have that bikini body and the self confidence to rock it!
As for the moving out of our apartment I REALLY WANT TO, my dad has a lawyer who is willing to help us if we need him but we are hoping to get out no problem seeing as the landlords might not want us telling people that they knew there was a drug ring in the apartment right beside theirs and they let it happen, so we are hoping to get out!! We went to see Shutter Island tonight, it was really good but a tad confusing has anyone else seen it??
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Marijuana Grow Op NEXT DOOR!
Yes you are reading this title right people on my floor have been running a marijuana grow op...awesome! Note my sarcasm, this is ridiculous! They live right across the hall from the landlords suspicious? I think not. My boyfriend and I have witnessed a lot of suspicious and odd behaviour over the past months we have been in this building but the last thing we thought was that there was some drug ring going on! So the other day I was going down to get the mail and a police officer got in the elevator with me and off on my floor looking around very suspicioulsy. So then later my boyfriend and I were leaving to go out to dinner and an RCMP officer got on and was going to another floor so we knew something was up. Later that night we could hear a lot of commotion going on in the hallway and it smelled so strongly of drugs both of us got a little sick. We did not want to go in the hallway in case something scary was going on so we stayed in the apartment and looked out the window. Below there were about 8 or 9 RCMP officers wearing bullet proof vests and guns loading up tons of piping and ventillation and drug paraphernillia into the bag of 3 huge trucks...scary.
I have not really felt safe here for awhile since there was an extremely violent fight in the hallway right outside my door where tons of glass was smashed and there were liquor bottles on the ground, we have been approached by people who were obviously waiting for drugs, there are tons of people going in and out of that apartment at all hours and many other fights. So now I do not know what to do, I do not really want to stay here even though the op was found does not mean the people were. There were signs saying that there was an annual inspection going on in the building so who knows if they were dumb enough to stick around I just think even if a few of them got caught like the ones on the lease, they could have made keys for their drug friends because there were always different people coming in and out, I just do not want to be in the wrong place at the wrong time...
Also it is a big unnerving knowing that they lived so close to the landlords it shows that they do not really care who comes in and out and I do not like that either, but we are in a year lease and it is only half up and we are not sure if breaking a lease for these reasons like personal safety reasons would be possible. Does anyone know anything about this type of thing? My dad has a lawyer that is willing to write a letter and such to the landlords but we are not sure what to do because we cannot afford to pay a penalty to leave UGH I really do not know what to do...
On lighter news my cat loves me too much. He needs an intervention. He always has to be attached to me at all times, although I secretly love it, it can be annoying at times such as right now. I am sitting on my bed writing this and have music blaring and I can still hear him snoring lol, he is like an 80 year old man! He is not even 2 years old yet and sometimes I think he is like 15, haha oh Frank!
Is anyone else out there absolutely addicted to horrible TV? Well I am! I will watch anything on MTV just horrible shows like Jersey Shore or the Real World well basically anything on MTV...terrible haha I have to watch them in private or the Real Housewives...so addicting and so terrible...yet delicious lol Just wondering if anyone else out there really loves this horrible TV as much as I do!
I have not really felt safe here for awhile since there was an extremely violent fight in the hallway right outside my door where tons of glass was smashed and there were liquor bottles on the ground, we have been approached by people who were obviously waiting for drugs, there are tons of people going in and out of that apartment at all hours and many other fights. So now I do not know what to do, I do not really want to stay here even though the op was found does not mean the people were. There were signs saying that there was an annual inspection going on in the building so who knows if they were dumb enough to stick around I just think even if a few of them got caught like the ones on the lease, they could have made keys for their drug friends because there were always different people coming in and out, I just do not want to be in the wrong place at the wrong time...
Also it is a big unnerving knowing that they lived so close to the landlords it shows that they do not really care who comes in and out and I do not like that either, but we are in a year lease and it is only half up and we are not sure if breaking a lease for these reasons like personal safety reasons would be possible. Does anyone know anything about this type of thing? My dad has a lawyer that is willing to write a letter and such to the landlords but we are not sure what to do because we cannot afford to pay a penalty to leave UGH I really do not know what to do...
On lighter news my cat loves me too much. He needs an intervention. He always has to be attached to me at all times, although I secretly love it, it can be annoying at times such as right now. I am sitting on my bed writing this and have music blaring and I can still hear him snoring lol, he is like an 80 year old man! He is not even 2 years old yet and sometimes I think he is like 15, haha oh Frank!
Is anyone else out there absolutely addicted to horrible TV? Well I am! I will watch anything on MTV just horrible shows like Jersey Shore or the Real World well basically anything on MTV...terrible haha I have to watch them in private or the Real Housewives...so addicting and so terrible...yet delicious lol Just wondering if anyone else out there really loves this horrible TV as much as I do!
Wow the economy really IS that bad!
So we have all heard people talking about how hard it is to get a job and how bad the economy is and I kept saying "Oh I can find a job I have a degree and lots of work experience" WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!! I have been unemployed for five months, the longest I have ever not been working since I turned 14 which was eleven years ago. So how did I get to this position? Well after graduation my boyfriend and I decided to go back to school me for a second degree and him for his masters well we hated it. Being at the same school for a 6th year just did not feel right and we decided to make a change. So he got a job about 2 hours away from my hometown and closer to his, so I thought why not try moving to a big city since I am from an extremely small town. I thought there would be tons of jobs considering how big the city is, well I was right that there are jobs but apparently did not think of how many people would be applying!! Going from a town of 1 thousand to a city of 400 000 well it is so much harder to get a job here than I ever imagined. I have applied to jobs in my field, malls, clothing stores, grocery stores, fast food, and restaurants and I have not even received ONE PHONE CALL for an interview sometimes I think my phone is broken but it is not!
So I am keeping my hopes up thinking this week will be the week that I get a job it has to happen eventually right? Well thats what I am going to keep telling myself! Unfortunately I have had to borrow some money from my parents which I HATE doing because I have always been independent and I receive lectures and have to listen to how much of a screw up I am but there is no where else to turn for help money wise right now. My boyfriend works so hard but he cannot pay for everything but he is great and buys all the food and such which is a great help. But I still need money for rent and bills and my debt payments from that awesome degree that got me...um...well it will get me somewhere someday! I have applied to teachers college and also college for this September so I just need something to get me through until then so I hope something comes up soon. I have been accepted into college into the social work program and am waiting to find out about teachers college, I find out in about 2 weeks (fingers crossed)! So unfortunately again I will have to borrow money from family for Aprils expenses which I am really dreading, my mom thinks that just because there is a mall beside my apartment that I should have a job by now as if I can just walk in and they will say "Oh of course you are hired!" right on the spot! Since we are from a small town I never had trouble getting a job before and she does not get that things are not the same way here as they are there. She thinks I am not trying hard enough because if I was I would have a job but I know that is not true so that is all that matters! It will happen! I am hoping to hear from a job at the YMCA for a summer office job which I am really looking forward to, I wrote a follow up email to the lady and she really liked that so lets hope I get a call!!
I also found out that I am going to Disney world...or land? Whichever one is in Florida WOOT! I have never been so I am super excited! My boyfriends parents called the other night and said "So do you guys want to go to Disney?" of course we do! We are so tight on money and have not been able to do anything so this call came at the perfect time we cannot wait! His parents are awesome and instead of taking a trip just the 2 of them they are taking the kids on vacation...so nice! So now I have to really get on that weight loss so I can rock a bikini in Florida :)
Cross your fingers I get a job soon!
So I am keeping my hopes up thinking this week will be the week that I get a job it has to happen eventually right? Well thats what I am going to keep telling myself! Unfortunately I have had to borrow some money from my parents which I HATE doing because I have always been independent and I receive lectures and have to listen to how much of a screw up I am but there is no where else to turn for help money wise right now. My boyfriend works so hard but he cannot pay for everything but he is great and buys all the food and such which is a great help. But I still need money for rent and bills and my debt payments from that awesome degree that got me...um...well it will get me somewhere someday! I have applied to teachers college and also college for this September so I just need something to get me through until then so I hope something comes up soon. I have been accepted into college into the social work program and am waiting to find out about teachers college, I find out in about 2 weeks (fingers crossed)! So unfortunately again I will have to borrow money from family for Aprils expenses which I am really dreading, my mom thinks that just because there is a mall beside my apartment that I should have a job by now as if I can just walk in and they will say "Oh of course you are hired!" right on the spot! Since we are from a small town I never had trouble getting a job before and she does not get that things are not the same way here as they are there. She thinks I am not trying hard enough because if I was I would have a job but I know that is not true so that is all that matters! It will happen! I am hoping to hear from a job at the YMCA for a summer office job which I am really looking forward to, I wrote a follow up email to the lady and she really liked that so lets hope I get a call!!
I also found out that I am going to Disney world...or land? Whichever one is in Florida WOOT! I have never been so I am super excited! My boyfriends parents called the other night and said "So do you guys want to go to Disney?" of course we do! We are so tight on money and have not been able to do anything so this call came at the perfect time we cannot wait! His parents are awesome and instead of taking a trip just the 2 of them they are taking the kids on vacation...so nice! So now I have to really get on that weight loss so I can rock a bikini in Florida :)
Cross your fingers I get a job soon!
Weight Loss!?
Well since I have not posted in so long I thought I would write a few today and separate them or else I would have one giant blog so I apologize in advance for the 5 blogs that I will probably write today! So the weight loss battle continues, I have been reading Monica's blog over at Confessions of a Plus Size and she really inspires me to keep writing about this topic because I feel I can really relate to her so THANKS MONICA :) I admit I really fell off the wagon for awhile and am still 193 (ugh) but I really really want to not be this way anymore, I started working out again and have been doing my best to eat well although chips and pizza really are my worst enemy! Sometimes I am happy that I am so poor because I cannot order pizza as much as I want to but my boyfriend buys that groceries and I always throw in that damn bag of chips, he tries to be supportive but believe me he cannot win, if he says "I thought you were trying to lose weight" I think ok thanks dad for the advice but if he does not say anything then he is enabling lol oh poor men sometimes they really do have to deal with some annoying stuff from us women (don't tell him i admitted that though). I did wish I had more money though so that I could join weight watchers or Curves because I do feel like I need that motivation from an outside source, I wish that I could motivate myself but there is something blocking me. I do not know if I am scared of how much work it will take to really lose weight or that I just enjoy failing I really do not know. For this reason I have been seeking some counselling just to help me figure out what is going on in my head that continues to block me from really going for it. However there is a huge waiting list for the counselling because it is a place that has funding for people who cannot afford it which I definitely cannot as I am unemployed which is a whole other blog on its own!
So I will hope that an opening comes up soon so I can get inside my head with a little help. Sometimes I think that people expect me to fail so I just expect myself to fail! My parents are definitely in that group. My dad does not say much about anything he is that dad who is always joking around and just does not talk about serious stuff but my mother well she is a whole other story! She tries to encourage but she just does not, she has always compared me and my sister and puts my sister so high up on her pedestal and I am always just the failure of the family. I wish I was over exaggerating or lying but I am not I have been told that I am fat, that I am not doing anything with my life, that I should have lived my sisters life, that I am irresponsible with money (what money??) and so on. It is so upsetting and discouraging when your own mother does not believe in you sometimes it is hard to believe in yourself when the people who are supposed to really believe in you do not. This issue is something I have been really struggling with lately as I have been really put down by my family lately and have been made even more of the outcast then I already am. My sisters boyfriend has become the 4th member of the family and I am never included in family things, I have confronted my mother numerous times about this but have been told that it is not true so I am at a point where I think maybe I just need to not have much of a relationship with them anymore and just live my life and know that I will never treat my kids the way I have been treated, it will make me a better parent whenever that time comes for me. I could go on and on about things my mom has done or said to me but I am starting to just think life would be better for me if I stopped concentrating on that and just lived my own life without trying SO hard to be a part of the family and to gain acceptance and for them to be proud. I am not sure how she does not get that my sister is 6 years older than me of course she is going to have a career and such, when my sister was age she was in the same situation as me yet my mom thinks I should be just as successful as my sister even though I am so much younger, and hello my sister is 30 and lives still with my parents yet my mom says "Oh I never have to worry about M because she is such an amazing person but Lauren oh she is a full time job I am always worried about her" WHATEVER of course she does not have to worry about my sister she has ZERO expenses and lives at home I am the one who has been living in the real world for 6 years doing it on my own never asking for help UGH. Well talking about this is getting me fired up so I think I will stop.
As for weight loss I need to kick my own butt and really just do it, I do not know what I am so afraid of...does anyone else feel this way that they have some sort of mental block that keeps them from succeeding or trying anything hard?? I do not want to let fear rule my life yet when I am around other people I feel so small and intimidated which is why I do not go to the Y for workout classes or try new things. HELP!
So I will hope that an opening comes up soon so I can get inside my head with a little help. Sometimes I think that people expect me to fail so I just expect myself to fail! My parents are definitely in that group. My dad does not say much about anything he is that dad who is always joking around and just does not talk about serious stuff but my mother well she is a whole other story! She tries to encourage but she just does not, she has always compared me and my sister and puts my sister so high up on her pedestal and I am always just the failure of the family. I wish I was over exaggerating or lying but I am not I have been told that I am fat, that I am not doing anything with my life, that I should have lived my sisters life, that I am irresponsible with money (what money??) and so on. It is so upsetting and discouraging when your own mother does not believe in you sometimes it is hard to believe in yourself when the people who are supposed to really believe in you do not. This issue is something I have been really struggling with lately as I have been really put down by my family lately and have been made even more of the outcast then I already am. My sisters boyfriend has become the 4th member of the family and I am never included in family things, I have confronted my mother numerous times about this but have been told that it is not true so I am at a point where I think maybe I just need to not have much of a relationship with them anymore and just live my life and know that I will never treat my kids the way I have been treated, it will make me a better parent whenever that time comes for me. I could go on and on about things my mom has done or said to me but I am starting to just think life would be better for me if I stopped concentrating on that and just lived my own life without trying SO hard to be a part of the family and to gain acceptance and for them to be proud. I am not sure how she does not get that my sister is 6 years older than me of course she is going to have a career and such, when my sister was age she was in the same situation as me yet my mom thinks I should be just as successful as my sister even though I am so much younger, and hello my sister is 30 and lives still with my parents yet my mom says "Oh I never have to worry about M because she is such an amazing person but Lauren oh she is a full time job I am always worried about her" WHATEVER of course she does not have to worry about my sister she has ZERO expenses and lives at home I am the one who has been living in the real world for 6 years doing it on my own never asking for help UGH. Well talking about this is getting me fired up so I think I will stop.
As for weight loss I need to kick my own butt and really just do it, I do not know what I am so afraid of...does anyone else feel this way that they have some sort of mental block that keeps them from succeeding or trying anything hard?? I do not want to let fear rule my life yet when I am around other people I feel so small and intimidated which is why I do not go to the Y for workout classes or try new things. HELP!
It Has Been Awhile
Well my friends it has been too long since I have posted, about 3 months to be exact. I do not know why i stopped blogging but I was going through some hard times and instead of using my blog as therapy I just started eating horrible food and wallowing in my own misery which of course never helps. So I thought I would start writing again and I would definitely appreciate any words of encouragement or advice from all or any of you :)
So I guess some updates are in order...where to begin. Well I had been dwelling on a lot of negative thoughts before the new year and was trying to deal with them yet I just kept stewing over certain things and could not let them go. One major thing was feeling as though I had no friends. Well this simply is not true I have some very good friends but they all live far away from me and even though we communicate through the phone or email it just is not the same since I am either with my boyfriend or completely alone which made me feel like I had no one. I love Facebook but I hate it all at the same time. It is good for helping to keep in touch with people but sometimes I get stuck looking at peoples pictures having so much fun with all their friends and seeing groups of girlfriends who have all stuck together over the years and it makes me sad because I feel I do not have that. Yet I know I am lucky to have a few really good friends and a great sister that I know would always be there for me when I really need them. Unfortunately the group of girls I belonged to all through my high school years turned out to be not the greatest people. I was always the one who did not talk about them and was a great friend to them and this past year one of them decided she did not like me anymore so of course now I am just completely cast out. Sometimes I have such a hard time believing we are 25 years old and still dealing with the same trivial things as when we were 12, some things never change I guess. So as my New Years resolution I decided that I would try not to care so much about those girls and accept the face that I do have some awesome friends who just happen to be spread across Canada and it is easy to focus on those girls who have ditched me because they are the only ones who stuck around and did not move far away so I guess it is always easy to focus on what is closest to you, it does hurt though as we were very close so I did not really make an effort to hang out with other people because I was always with them so now I really am on my own but I am hoping that one day I will meet some awesome new friends and not even think about those girls anymore. As much as my boyfriend sometimes gets on my nerves I sure am glad to have him because he truly is my best friend also, and I am so glad to have my best friend Sandra who even though she lives in Vancouver now we still talk oh about 6 times a day on MSN lol so I am glad she is in my life.
So it is time to really appreciate the people in my life and stop wishing I had that tight group of girlfriends from high school yes some people are lucky enough to have a group of loyal girlfriends but maybe I just haven`t found mine yet?
So I guess some updates are in order...where to begin. Well I had been dwelling on a lot of negative thoughts before the new year and was trying to deal with them yet I just kept stewing over certain things and could not let them go. One major thing was feeling as though I had no friends. Well this simply is not true I have some very good friends but they all live far away from me and even though we communicate through the phone or email it just is not the same since I am either with my boyfriend or completely alone which made me feel like I had no one. I love Facebook but I hate it all at the same time. It is good for helping to keep in touch with people but sometimes I get stuck looking at peoples pictures having so much fun with all their friends and seeing groups of girlfriends who have all stuck together over the years and it makes me sad because I feel I do not have that. Yet I know I am lucky to have a few really good friends and a great sister that I know would always be there for me when I really need them. Unfortunately the group of girls I belonged to all through my high school years turned out to be not the greatest people. I was always the one who did not talk about them and was a great friend to them and this past year one of them decided she did not like me anymore so of course now I am just completely cast out. Sometimes I have such a hard time believing we are 25 years old and still dealing with the same trivial things as when we were 12, some things never change I guess. So as my New Years resolution I decided that I would try not to care so much about those girls and accept the face that I do have some awesome friends who just happen to be spread across Canada and it is easy to focus on those girls who have ditched me because they are the only ones who stuck around and did not move far away so I guess it is always easy to focus on what is closest to you, it does hurt though as we were very close so I did not really make an effort to hang out with other people because I was always with them so now I really am on my own but I am hoping that one day I will meet some awesome new friends and not even think about those girls anymore. As much as my boyfriend sometimes gets on my nerves I sure am glad to have him because he truly is my best friend also, and I am so glad to have my best friend Sandra who even though she lives in Vancouver now we still talk oh about 6 times a day on MSN lol so I am glad she is in my life.
So it is time to really appreciate the people in my life and stop wishing I had that tight group of girlfriends from high school yes some people are lucky enough to have a group of loyal girlfriends but maybe I just haven`t found mine yet?
Friday, December 18, 2009
I am failing...NOT GOOD
Well people I am not doing well with the weight loss and life changes. I am very discouraged as I have been looking for a job and applying every single day and have not received one phone call, UGH. Apparently a university degree and 10 years experience do not get you a job, it is driving me crazy which means I have been sitting around at home eating bad food. Such a horrible cycle. I also have not been going to the gym or going to the counselling that I said I was going to do. Lets just hope people are waiting to hire after the holidays and I can pull myself out of this bad rut I am in.
I am also a giant scaredy cat lol, my boyfriend has been working midnights which leaves me alone during the night and last night some guy knocked on my door a few times and was creeping me out. This lead to me not sleeping at all and staying up until 630 when my boyfriend came home, so now I feel like total crap!! I have always been this way, I get scared of things that should not scare me. When I was a kid I had horrible night terrors, the same dream haunted me every single night for years and turned me into someone who is afraid of the night. Not every night am I afraid just when things like that happen or I hear noises, but I have my kitties here to protect me (yeah right).
I have been keeping myself busy reading and cross stitching. I made my mom a cross stitch picture and am working on one for my boyfriends mom too, my mom will be so proud she is a very crafty lady and will be proud that I have made her something for Christmas. I have also started a new venture reading the top 100 books of all time. I am on the second one right now which is "The Da Vinci Code" which is awesome!! So i am almost done 2 out of 100 books, hopefully I can get this done before I die.
Right now I am trying to figure out what I am going to do with my life but it is hard since I do not find out if I got into teachers college until April 1st therefore my life is on hold. My plan right now is that if I get into teachers college then I will obviously go, but if not I am going to move to Vancouver, I have wanted to move there for years and 2 of my best friends are there so that would be nice and a good ole fun adventure. So hopefully April will come fast and I can make a plan because right now I feel like I am doing nothing with my life, my money is running out, no one is calling me for a job and I am feeling fat and depressed. So something better happen soon!!
I am also a giant scaredy cat lol, my boyfriend has been working midnights which leaves me alone during the night and last night some guy knocked on my door a few times and was creeping me out. This lead to me not sleeping at all and staying up until 630 when my boyfriend came home, so now I feel like total crap!! I have always been this way, I get scared of things that should not scare me. When I was a kid I had horrible night terrors, the same dream haunted me every single night for years and turned me into someone who is afraid of the night. Not every night am I afraid just when things like that happen or I hear noises, but I have my kitties here to protect me (yeah right).
I have been keeping myself busy reading and cross stitching. I made my mom a cross stitch picture and am working on one for my boyfriends mom too, my mom will be so proud she is a very crafty lady and will be proud that I have made her something for Christmas. I have also started a new venture reading the top 100 books of all time. I am on the second one right now which is "The Da Vinci Code" which is awesome!! So i am almost done 2 out of 100 books, hopefully I can get this done before I die.
Right now I am trying to figure out what I am going to do with my life but it is hard since I do not find out if I got into teachers college until April 1st therefore my life is on hold. My plan right now is that if I get into teachers college then I will obviously go, but if not I am going to move to Vancouver, I have wanted to move there for years and 2 of my best friends are there so that would be nice and a good ole fun adventure. So hopefully April will come fast and I can make a plan because right now I feel like I am doing nothing with my life, my money is running out, no one is calling me for a job and I am feeling fat and depressed. So something better happen soon!!
Sunday, December 6, 2009
Updates on Life
Well my friends it has been a long time since I have written and there have been a few changes since my last post. I am still trying to lose weight and I have been eating much better than I have in years. Making sure I eat breakfast and more often throughout the day and also trying to drink more water and not so much junk food and take out. I have been eating 2 or 3 slices of pizza a week which is nothing compared to how I used to eat but every time I eat it I get the worst stomach ache its like my body is saying NOOO I DO NOT WANT THIS...so I don't think I will be eating weekly pizza anymore, which is definitely a good thing but I will miss it. It sounds weird but it has been a big part of my life. I went through a depression about a year and a half ago after my then boyfriend told me one day he wanted to marry me and the next day left me in the middle of the night and told me it was over. I then proceeded to order Pizza Hut every night for 2 months...that is 60 straight days of a medium pizza or large pizza to myself, needless to say I had a stack bigger than me of pizza boxes in my apartment. Pizza was my drug of choice, it kept me company, i could eat my feelings instead of dealing with them, so trying to cut out these foods and eat better is actually emotionally challenging.
I have been going to the gym lately which is great however I really do not like the gym. At first I was getting really frustrated and almost cancelled my gym membership because I would rather do something that I really like instead of being in the gym which I hate. I used to be an athlete and play baseball which I loved which kept me in good shape so I want something like that to do so that I actually enjoy it and do not make excuses and never go. So I decided I would go to the fitness classes and use the pool at the gym and i enjoy it much better so I hope to see more weight coming off soon!!
My kitty Estelle made it through her surgery and is doing fine! She ripped out her stitches and lost like 3 teeth all within days after, poor girl but she is okay and is currently asleep at my feet!
We decorated our apartment for Christmas which was a lot of fun we got a beautiful tree and ornaments and stockings which i made some for our kitties with their pictures in them, they are so cute. We put a cute stocking on our apartment door about a week ago, then tonight we went out to get dinner, came home and our stocking had been stolen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am very upset about this!!! Who would do that? So many people on our floor have decorations on their doors and we are the ones who get ours stolen... not cool...i am sad about this!
I applied to teachers college so now I have to wait 5 months to see if i get in, I really hope so because I need to start doing something with my life, I am still unemployed and looking for a job so hopefully something thats right for me comes along soon!
Anyways thats all that is new, I stepped on the scale a couple days ago and saw 189 which I was soo happy about because I have not been out of the 190s in a long time, so hopefully tomorrow morning it will still say that, but I think it might have gone up again... SIGH!
I have been going to the gym lately which is great however I really do not like the gym. At first I was getting really frustrated and almost cancelled my gym membership because I would rather do something that I really like instead of being in the gym which I hate. I used to be an athlete and play baseball which I loved which kept me in good shape so I want something like that to do so that I actually enjoy it and do not make excuses and never go. So I decided I would go to the fitness classes and use the pool at the gym and i enjoy it much better so I hope to see more weight coming off soon!!
My kitty Estelle made it through her surgery and is doing fine! She ripped out her stitches and lost like 3 teeth all within days after, poor girl but she is okay and is currently asleep at my feet!
We decorated our apartment for Christmas which was a lot of fun we got a beautiful tree and ornaments and stockings which i made some for our kitties with their pictures in them, they are so cute. We put a cute stocking on our apartment door about a week ago, then tonight we went out to get dinner, came home and our stocking had been stolen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am very upset about this!!! Who would do that? So many people on our floor have decorations on their doors and we are the ones who get ours stolen... not cool...i am sad about this!
I applied to teachers college so now I have to wait 5 months to see if i get in, I really hope so because I need to start doing something with my life, I am still unemployed and looking for a job so hopefully something thats right for me comes along soon!
Anyways thats all that is new, I stepped on the scale a couple days ago and saw 189 which I was soo happy about because I have not been out of the 190s in a long time, so hopefully tomorrow morning it will still say that, but I think it might have gone up again... SIGH!
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